DeBRIS

While you move in with your new beauty

I waste my days moving your debris

And sort out the lies from what you didn’t mean

Concluding once again that something is wrong with me

So you save your face behind honesty

Dismissing how you failed at what we shared

See, honesty ain’t such if it don’t come with loyalty

How you get out of this will show to me how much you cared.

DERMA

Just cuz she’s so shy it doesn’t mean she’s the only one here

Just cuz she can please it doesn’t mean she’s not manipulating you

Just cuz she’s articulate it doesn’t mean she’s got interesting things to say

I let this go under my skin

You feed my lust tease my hopes and starve my trust

You gauge your space and keep me confined

While I measure my depth by the scars you leave behind

Oh, come on, don’t you think I can tell

That I am not the last one who’s lain here

Just cuz I don’t bitch it doesn’t mean things go unnoticed

Just cuz she’s all over you, it doesn’t mean she’s got what you need to grow

Just cuz you clean up afterwards, still they’ll leave their scent

It’s so crowded here I can’t find the smell of your skin

You feed my fears shatter my hopes then disappear

To surround yourself with your supply

But they don’t know is the scars you leave behind

I can’t tell no more if I like your scent

Cuz there’s too many others over it

DELIBERATE

Suddenly it is clear to me

That what you need sways with your mood

To you, I’m a role to fill

To you, I just came in handy

Carefully I let you draw from my strength

And I, see I, peeled back your layers

For you, I wore scars on my sleeve

To mirror yours and reassure you

Who I really am remains

DEPLETED

And all the beautiful things you have to say about me

Tell them to the one you pick

If you disappear, I prefer

Silence

DEFENSE

So the levees gave in, you flooded me gently but at the cost of loss

And the very same thing that should keep you close is the one you fear the most

And scares you away to find ways to scathe me

Cuz you cannot stand how my authenticity defeats your ego trips

And yes my looks might be sloppy for you but what I got inside is dense, dense

And that very same thing now makes me retreat and play defense

The words that you choose and the way you deliver them

Creep into my thoughts, what I’ve done to be released from your grip

So I gotta go back and collect my debris

To protect and connect to my soul of ashes